small dick to start the day

This is what TP sees every morning before getting in the shower. Every day starts with a reminder that TP's dick is tiny.

My Dick Looks Great in those Heels?

My Mistress wanted me to contribute to this tumblr, http://www.yourdicklooksgreatinthoseheels.com/, which was easier said than done. It was hard for me to get a picture like the ones on the site because all the other dicks fit in the shoes, and mine... well... it doesn't. The pic has been submitted, but we'll see if it makes the cut. Either way, it is posted here for you all to enjoy, or laugh at.

Slave Memories: SPH Online and In Person

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Penis Lifts

Mistress ordered me to do some penis lifts, probably not because she thinks it will make my little dick bigger, but because she thought it would be funny to see. Most real men use some kind of weight when doing a penis lift, but she told me to use a pair of panties because that's all the weight my baby dick could handle. For some reason my tiny penis would not stay hard when the video started. It is so sad that it's not only small, but it also gets stage fright. If my dick can't stay hard then there's no hope for my porn career. Of course there aren't many roles for little dicked losers in porn anyway.

short clip of my small dick attempting penis lifts....

Peeing with a Tiny Penis....another video

Mistress has made me sit to pee for some time now, because with a dick like mine it makes no sense to pee standing like a real man with a real penis. She did want me to document peeing like a man does though, to show how ridiculous it is for me.

clip of me standing to pee with my tiny dick....

This is the second video of me peeing like this, but the first one was from my perspective. In order to film it, the camera had to be in my hand. She wanted a more accurate video, so this time the camera was sitting on the counter.

As you can see, my teeny tiny penis barely stick out of the fly of my jeans. My hands don't really hold and aim my penis....they really just hold my pants back so my clit-dick has room to stick out. And shaking it is kind of hard to do since it is so tiny. It is easy for me to get pee on my fingers when peeing like a man does, so she wanted to be sure to tell me to wash my hands. That is very important for all men to do, but especailly for "men" with dicks that are more like clits.

Put Me In Coach!

Looks like my dick is ready for winter to be over and for baseball season to start, because he's got his tiny little baseball cap on. I think he might be able to play shortstop.... get it... "short" stop.... nevermind.

Actually, my Mistress ordered me to take a picture of my little dick wearing a little hat, so here's my little boner in a hat. I hope she likes it!

This Is Why It's Hard To Pee With A Tiny Penis

About a week ago I blogged about the difficulties of peeing with a tiny dick. It really does make it hard to pee without making a mess. It was embarrassing to admit I can't pee like a real man, but that was nothing compared to what I'm about to do....provide visual evidence. You're about to see why my little penis makes is difficult to take a piss.

Here you can see that my little stub of a penis barely peeks past the fly of my pants. Most men whip out their cocks when they step up to a urinal, but I have to push my fly back and hope the tip of my dick makes it past.....

Here you can see why I have to wash my hands after taking a piss. It amazes me when I see a guy in a public restroom skip washing his hands, but I guess their dicks are long enough to avoid getting wet fingertips. I don't have much to grab onto, so when I do hold it to aim I get pee on my fingers.....

Sitting to pee is better, but not perfect. As you can see, my penis stub is so short that when I sit down it points instead of hangs. So when I sit to pee I have to remember to push it down so the pee stream doesn't go straight out and over the rim of the bowl.....

CBT Target

For any Mistresses out there that want to practice some CBT, feel free to use this pic of my tiny penis and balls for target practice.

Shrinkage?

Here's a pic of my little dick after I spashed ice water all over it. I would say it looks small because of shrinkage, but it always looks like that. Actually, I was a little excited to be taking a picture, so it isn't at its absolute smallest.

Almost 4 Inches!

Wow...I almost measure at 4 inches in this pic!

Small Penis Handicaps...Peeing with a Tiny Dick

There are a lot of problems that come with having a really small penis. Obviously, it is difficult, if not impossible, to please a woman with a dick as small as mine. Another problem is finding condoms small enough to stay on my little penis. And there is the humiliation you feel when showering in a locker room and you're the smallest dick there. But there is another problem that all little-dicked guys have to deal with on a daily basis.....it's hard to pee with a small penis.

My Mistress has decided that I should pee sitting down from now on. It makes sense really, since men stand to pee, men have dicks, and my penis is closer to a clit than a dick. Every time I sit down to pee it reminds me of how pathetic my clit-dick is.

Standing to pee when your as small as I am is difficult. I'm only an inch or so long when soft, so I have to make sure I pull my little nub out as far as possible when I piss. I also have to make sure that the open fly of my pants is pushed back and away. I can't casually whip it out and go like most men. I have to make a conscious effort to get my pants out of the way.

Even if I get my baby-dick past my pants, I have to make sure I hit the toilet. I have to remember to get as close to the toilet as possible, and lean forward. Otherwise I dribble in the front of the rim or on the floor. I hate making a mess in my bathroom at home. And if I'm not careful, that's what happens. I doubt men with normal sized dicks have to clean the floor after every time they pee.

Another problem is public restrooms. I hate them. My dick is so small that I am embarrassed to pee in public urinals. I know most guys aren't looking, but I still get too nervous to go. It makes trips to the bathroom in crowded public places like bars, stadiums, and airports very difficult. I always think everyone who sees me go into a stall thinks I'm some kind of wimp that is scared to pee in public, which I am.

When I do manage to pee standing up without making a mess of my pants or the floor, I always get a little pee on my fingers. I don't have much of a dick to shake when I'm done, and it is so short that my fingers are really close to the end, so they always get some pee on them. I'm always amazed at the guys that don't wash their hands after pissing. It's really gross, but I assume there dicks are big enough that they can hold them at the base and still be far away from the pee stream.

So peeing sitting down is a better option, but it is still not perfect. You would think with a clit-dick I would be able to pee like a girl, but there is a problem. My flaccid penis is so short that it points instead of hangs. So I have to remember to push it down when I sit on the toilet. Otherwise the pee goes straight forward from my little acorn of a soft wiener, and can go over the front rim of the toilet. This makes a huge mess and is way worse than dribbling on the floor. It splashes all over the back of my legs and the pants I am wearing, and runs down the front of the toilet bowl too. I can clean up the toilet bowl, but getting the back of my pant legs covered in piss can only be fixed by doing laundry. And it looks odd to change your pants in the middle of the day for no reason. Imagine trying to explain that since you have a tiny penis, you have to sit to pee, but even that doesn't always work and you pissed all over yourself. It's humiliating.

This happened to me the other day, but luckily I was still wearing my PJ's so I didn't have to change pants in the middle of the day. The worst was when it happened on the first day of a long weekend trip, and I ruined one of the two pairs of pants I had packed.

So as you can see, having a tiny penis is a real handicap. It's more than the just the humiliation of being an inadequate sexual partner. It makes simple things like taking a leak very difficult. My penis is very pathetic and doesn't even function like a normal penis does. How sad.

Toilet Seat Ballbusting

Since I'm a long distance slave, I have to get creative to amuse my Mistress. She can't ball bust me in person, so I have to do it myself. I think I do a pretty good job of it, considering how hard it is to actually hurt yourself. When she tells me to hit myself in the balls, I do it....but of course not as hard as she would hit me.

I have been feeling like a bad slave recently, so I wanted to do something for her to make up for my shortcomings. I decided on my own to make a video of a little self ball busting. Instead of slapping my balls, I put them on the toilet seat and dropped the toilet lid on them. I did flinch a few times, but finally forced myself to stay put and get a decent video. It would been nice to move my small dick out of the way so my balls felt the full force of the falling lid, but my little nub is so small that it just sits on top of my balls.

I'm very happy to say she loved it and enjoyed seeing me in pain! She even showed it to a friend! The sad thing is her friend thought I had no dick at all. Mistress had to point it out to her. I guess it is kind of hard to see in this video, but it's there. As a reward she is letting my touch myself, but I am still not allowed to have an orgasm.

Surprise Wanking Instructions on Twitter

After taking a break from serving to tend to some "real life" issues, my Mistress was kind enough to ease me back into her service by allowing me a very generous TWO orgasms a week! She really enjoys my suffering and frustration when I'm not allowed to cum, so being allowed two a week was very nice of her. Of course there was a catch though. I was only allowed to touch my tiny penis during a two hour window each day. At first it was from noon to 2 pm, then she changed it to 10 am to noon. So even though I was allowed to orgasm twice a week, if I didn't have the time or privacy to masturbate during those two hours, I was out of luck. While these rules were in place I was lucky to get one release a week.

I was pretty frustrated for weeks following these rules, and would wake up each morning with very hard and painful morning wood and very blue balls. Not being able to touch my dick at all outside of that two hour window was hard...

I was very lucky one Saturday when I had the time to wank my little dick during my free window, because my Mistress happened to notice my tweet about masturbating. I live two time zones away from Mistress, so I don't get to talk to her often, so an unexpected reply from her to my tweet about wanking was a pleasant surprise! Of course there was a catch though. She told me I had to tie up my little dick and balls and wait a half hour to wank, and then I had to slap my cock and balls hard three times when I started, untie halfway to orgasm, and then slap myself three more times right before I came. It isn't easy to slap yourself and make it hurt. You naturally ease up at the last second, but I am getting pretty good at really hitting myself hard because I know that is what she wants. And with my penis being so small, it doesn't get in the way when my balls are slapped. Because of my small size both my cock and balls can take the full force of my hand, so I have the sharp stinging pain on my dick at the same time I have the dull ache on my balls.

My mistress wanted a pic of my little penis tied up as proof, so here it is. You can barely see my small dick behind the shoelace I used to tie myself up.....

These days things are a little more frustrating. My latest restrictions don't allow for any orgasms at all until further notice. She did let me have a free day last weekend when I came twice in one day! She did make me eat it all though.

public humiliation

My mistress wanted me to do something to amuse her, so she told me to wear a sign around my neck that said "small-dicked loser" in public. I was really nervous doing this, and I didn't go to a really busy street. I don't think anyone saw me. Until now that is.....well not really since I hid my face, but that's as far as I want to go for now.

wanking schedule report

At the end of September, my Mistress gave me a pretty strict wanking schedule that I had to follow until Halloween. For over a month, every orgasm I had was a gift from her. It was hard, and I wasn't perfect, but it was worth it because she was pleased with my effort. It was worth it because she enjoyed my frustration.

The schedule controlled how and when I had orgasms. It even controlled when I was allowed to touch my tiny dick at all. There were chances to cum, but I wasn't always able to take advantage of them. If I had a busy schedule on a day when wanking was allowed, I had to miss out. And when I did get to wank, I had to do the way she told me, which was always a pretty humiliating way.

Thursdays were the best, because I was allowed to hump my pillow. I wasn't allowed to masturbate like a normal guy. The reason she wanted me to hump my pillow was to make me realize what it is like to fuck my tiny little pecker. A woman having sex with me gets no pleasure from penetration...it's all from friction of her clit on my body. There is no up and down motion when a woman is on top during sex with me because my little dick would slip out. So even if she has an orgasm, it isn't quite as satisfying as it would be if she had a big dick deep inside her. I had orgasms humping my pillow, but they were not as good as if I was able to stroke my baby dick. It really put my shortcomings during sex into perspective.

Also, I felt pretty stupid humping my own pillow.

Of course I also had to lick all the cum of of my pillow when I was done. I had to eat most of the cum I produced during that time....even if it was from regular sex. I had to eat it from my used condoms.

The best part of the wanking schedule was that the frustration was a constant reminder of my amazing Mistress. When I went days or weeks without cumming, it made my devotion to her even stronger. And when I did get to release, it was a special gift from her. She was always on my mind. Since the schedule ended she has given me the freedom to masturbate and orgasm as much as I want, and I have taken advantage. I have been getting reacquainted with my little buddy between my legs. It has been fun, and I am very appreciative of the freedom she has given me, but it also is kind of a let down. I think I'd rather be under her control and be frustrated. I love sacrificing for her, and I love that she enjoys my frustration. Life is ind of boring without her control.

Of course this freedom will not last. She has told me a new assignment is coming, and I have no idea what it is. It could be even more frustrating than the last wanking schedule. It could be very humiliating. Whatever it is, I will do my best to please her. I am a very lucky slave.

Balancing Act

Let's see...how many things can I balance on my erect penis. A matchbook. A paperclip. And.....that's it? Yikes.

Consensual humiliation

BDSM isn't for everyone, but even people that don't like it probably understand the thrill of being tied up or spanking someone. And I bet that most couples have one person that tends to take more control during sex. A leather clad dominatrix with a riding crop might even be a stimulating image for a lot of people. The very basics of BDSM probably don't freak out most open-minded people.

Now humiliation as a part of BDSM is a different story. People do not seem to understand how someone could enjoy being humiliated. They think it is a sign of deeper issues and that it cannot be healthy. Well the thrill of BDSM come from the exchange of power. Some people like taking control, some people like giving it up, and humiliation is just a tool that allows for that to happen. Small penis humiliation is just one way to go about it.

Small penis humiliation, or SPH, really seems to strikes a nerve. Women are trained to be sensitive to penis size and to tell their partners "size doesn't matter". Guys are told their penis size defines who they are as men. Real life rejection based on a small dick can be devastating and can scare men away from dating again. Yeah it is rough, but that is why it is so effective in consensual BDSM play. SPH in real life situations can be hard to take. It's happened to me before. I've been teased by a friend of my girlfriend. I've been teased after going skinny dipping. I've been told by a friend that I am very small. I can see how someone who isn't submissive would let this really get to him.

But that is why it is so perfect for consensual BDSM. Critics always forget that part though...it is consensual. For a submissive that gets off on SPH, it is a very effective way of getting into subspace. I feel the most vulnerable when I hear my Mistress laugh at my small penis.

Being teased about my small size is no different than being spanked or tied up. It is just a way to give up control to my Mistress. It is no different than any other fetish. She knows how far to push me, and shows concern if it seems like things are going too far. Just recently she checked with me that the direction she was taking was OK. She stopped to make sure I was fine and that I was still giving consent for this type of play. This is why consensual humiliation is different than real life situations....I gave her control, and she took it. I wouldn't have it any other way.

wanking schedule

I am very lucky because I serve an amzing woman. My Mistress is incredibly beautiful, but more importanly she is talented and smart and very cool. She controls how often and how I have orgasms. Here is the wanking schedule I have to follow until Halloween....


BabyWank Schedule for 9/23 through Halloween:

Mondays: NO TOUCHING AT ALL except to urinate and shower. No release.

Tuesdays: NO TOUCHING AT ALL except to urinate and shower. No release.

Wednesdays: NO RELEASE but touching OK. However, if you touch yourself you need to punish yourself by putting 1 finger in your ass.
WASH HANDS THOROUGHLY AFTERWARDS.

Thursdays: Two releases allowed within a ONE HOUR period only. All cum must be consumed. All orgasms only take place while lying down and humping a pillow like a girl.
Put towel on pillow first so your wife doesn't have to deal with any damp surprises. Consume all cum.

Friday day: NO TOUCHING AT ALL except to urinate and shower. Orgasm allowed ONLY IF you touch through clothes. No consumption.

Friday night and Weekend: Sex with wife only, release OK but only AFTER she has at least one. All cum must be consumed from condoms.

No touching at all on the days I say no touching. Friday is different.
You my have non-orgasmic sex with wife throughout the week. Fri night through Sunday night you may also release per my directions.

Big dildo...tiny dick

Here is a picture of my small penis next to a big, thick, seven inch dildo. It dwarfs my dick. Look at how much thicker it is, and it is easily three inches longer. There is no way my dick could compete with a dildo this size...the size of a real man's cock.

Actually, this is not really a dildo. It is a hollow penis extension sleeve. It's a hollow dildo that fits over my small dick that I sometimes wear during sex. How pathetic is that? I have to wear a fake cock to fuck like a real man. I feel totally different when I have it on. I can do so much more in bed when I am wearing it....but then I take it off and feel even smaller than usual.

awwwwww, it's so cute

Look at the ribbon on the itty bitty pee pee. What a cute tiny little dick. Isn't it adorable?